What's Your Secret?

hey there
specter of hope
shadow of disappointment
i chase you in my dreams
on a wooden ship of solemn promises
with sails woven of countless shimmering tears
i never cried.
i thought a few whispered breaths
would wrap your arms back around me,
maybe because our parting was so reluctant
hesitant
"i wish this wasn't it."
was it so long ago
your burning fingers traced your name on my skin
and we tasted honeyed hope
drank of simple satisfaction
complete?

didn't you see in my eyes the hopeful reflection of a thousand perfect days?
you know they are more than ghosts,
more than mere aparitions of possibility.
but you made a simple choice between a sure thing and a better thing.
take back the shining truths you whispered in the dark;
please, tell me the lies you told yourself
so i too can turn around and walk away.