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"...the events that led me to comprehend that art can transform pain." Roman Polanksi

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"The riddles of God are more satisfying than the solutions of man." Chesterton

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"Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable." Lewis

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Waiting


I am no good at waiting. It is a frustrating, numbing exercise in spinning the mental wheels. Constant consideration of my current predicament turns my mind into a shadow box of smoke and mirrors, a 24/7 production studio for surreal Disney cartoon nightmares that frighten children and adults alike with their disproportional dimensions. Amidst the fevered lingering, reality blurs and softens into a horrific play dough of doubt, rather then the hard, fast, cutting truth I am used to. I'm haunted by massive specters of unsurity and misgiving, no sit-downs and DTR's and verbal crutches to assure me through my day. There is something missing and in her place is a self-made Baal of beauty and grace, "picture perfect fit" for all my needs, but she stumbles around in my mind, half a world away, in various positions of compromise and suspicion.

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Top Songs About Waiting


Sitting, Waiting, Wishing - Jack Johnson
Waiting - Sugar Ray
I'm Waiting for My Man - Lou Reed
I Can't Wait in Vain for Your Love - Bob Marley (;-) to Tyler)

posted by Michael | 8:53 AM

3 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Trust God---your times are in His hands. His timing is never late."
(from an Elisabeth Elliot calendar)

"Oh, satisfy us early with Your mercy, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days!" Ps. 90:14

Michael,
The Lord will accomplish all those things which concern you.....you can trust Him. He loves you.

And I do, too,
Mom

10:20 PM  
Blogger Michael said...

Thank you all for the kind comments, as always, especially you mom. Nice to see you on here.

9:30 AM  
Blogger Tyler Hill said...

Michael, I think meditation might bring a bit of mental peace. Clears the thinking mans mind. Perhaps a little Buddah on the dash, a puff of incense, and some chanting would do wonders?
Ok, don't go eastern on me, but maybe "christian meditation" is something to consider. If there is such a thing?
Other than that, eh, err, I love you?
:)

11:51 AM  

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